Sunday, May 1, 2011

Raid time is 8...No! 7.30, No! 7.15, No! 7.00! ....omg you why are you late?

So, I planned to log on 7.25, as per raid calendar and as I do every raid night. HOWEVER my fellow raiders were pestering to raid rather earlier than normal at 7.00; So I played on a long-running joke (one time a friend said I was in a car crash and many people believe I had actually been in a case of chinese whispers)and said "I'm not here, I died in a car crash" and we were joking around in skype text. So I log on and get in the raid group and get summoned into raid.

I say in mumble that I am just changing my push-to-talk, meanwhile they pull the fire dragon add and proceed to wipe. Zor, already sounding ragey, is not in any mood for jovial talk and says not to waste time. I'm not a fan of the ragers; so I say that I could be using this time to study on a assignment which due date is fast approaching. That I COULD be studying for myself, but instead I am here for the group and therefore I am not wasting time. Because I know that consistency is needed. He then basically says that if I don't want to be there and I need to study then just leave because they will sub me and it is better then me wasting time. at which point I do, because to be honest I did not feel as though i had any other choice; to stay implies that his raging is justified and that it is a sucessfull tactic. and I am very much opposed to this. In any case he practically asked me to leave and I'm not going to stay and raid under someone who has already perceived my actions in a certain light and is already in a angry mood.

As far as I am concerned they can go without me and sub someone in and I will study...if they make it clear that they do not need me to raid then my rational for staying is null and I will go do some much needed study.

Furthermore what pisses me of is that I am a consistent raider, yet somehow, probably due to joking about it, I am plastered as not so. and now I am told that I appear distracted and distant in raids. I don't know if this is the case, but I have a feeling that distant and distracted is a result of my depression. I admit at times I am finding it hard to concentrate and my life atm is fairly drawly. But I don't exactly know what to do to change that perception, to stop it being interpreted as disinterest in raiding? I achieve SO LITTLE in my day and yet I am exhausted; I don't feel I have the time to do anything and even simple things feel like insane effort.

I'm going off-topic....though there is a relation here, this is more then enough of what I intended to post in this QQ.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Resto druids only QQ ... -.-

Yes. I admit, initially I reacted very harshly. But I have a rule, as per previous posts I sometime raid with Smokey MUTED in mumble. He is muted because he pre-empts raid failures, thus getting rage-y and frustrated BEFORE anything has gone wrong; making me feel very stressed and potentially increasing the likely-hood that shit will go wrong.

and guess what, in Verethy's absence (due to a ban) he was promoted to an officer. I've played with Smokey for a long time and he is my best friend in the world. But I flat-out refuse to raid under him because in the past it has just ended well.....badly. Secondly, what does it say about what Wipe Inc. values if rage-y, frustrated and superfluous calling is valued?! BLARGH. Makes me feel like I am throwing my suggestions at a brick wall....a brick wall with rocket wheels that just wants to BRUTE FORCE it's way through everyone's moral.

So. Yes, I snapped, I said I needed some time away from raiding. I tried (to no avail) to explain to Smokes, that I still FUCKING LOVE HIM BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD NAW NAW NAW LOVE N CUDDLES RAWR!!!!!! ... So I made a little "Who-ha" while I figured out how i would handle this stressful situation. and despite not having missed a single raid due to this blow out I have still been effectively removed from raiding. Our raid leader has an unhealthy hatred for I am feeling out of the circle.

After I calmed myself I did ask for a short break from raiding (a week!) because I am BEHIND on my studies and as much as I want to PARTY HARD; study hard is all I have time to do.

The problem is wipe inc doesn't have any back up heals. Our generally "unreliable" heals can have times where they cannot attend and it's A-OK(**TANGEANT WARNING** a certain resto druid(<3) hasn't been able to raid and I am partly to blame.). But because I have made a point of being reliable it is expected, therefore me asking for a break is unexpected and frowned upon. I have been demoted from "Core raided" to "raider" and, as per the title of this post, the raid leader has somehow come to the conclusion that this a flaw inherit with resto druids; thus they need to replace us with priests .....wait for it......because apparently priests have more cooldowns then resto druids.

say it with me now.....Innervate, Tranquility and TREEFORM!not to mention resto druids are set to get a few more buffs.

I am just...offended; not ONLY does the raid leader think that my reliable and powerful heals are not valuable; he is prepared to ditch the whole godamm resto spec : /


Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Friday, February 25, 2011

Resto fight

The awkward moment you have sex with your boyfriend and it gets him banned from world of warcraft and when he comes back he is a threat to your raid spot >.>